I haven't "blogged" in a while. I've had a lot on my mind lately so I figured I would sit and write about it. There are so many things in this life I don't understand, that I look at and say "Is this really my life?," "Am I dreaming?," "Will you pinch me?"...
For example:
-I have an almost 18 month old little girl who is so full of life, so smart, so angelic, so perfect...most days I look at her and can't believe she's really mine. Can't believe that I'm a mother to such a wonderful little creation.
-I'm 30. Enough said there.
-I have a husband who can absolutely drive me up the wall picking his fingernails, falling asleep on the couch *almost* every night, watching movies blaring on volume 50, he's messy, unorganized, the complete opposite of me, but somehow my perfect match.
-We own 2 businesses...which means we are both self-employed, which means we pay a bootie load of taxes, banks don't like us, we never have a day off, but also means neither one of us have a boss, and we couldn't see it any other way.
-I have a dog that has probably costs me more money than I will ever add up on paper because I think I would fall over at the amount I have spent on her countless health problems and now 2 stomach surgeries, the first to remove razor blades and the second to remove 2 pacifiers from her intestines.
-I have 2 brothers that have shown their true colors over the past year and all I can say is that I definitely have the best brothers a girl could ask for. They have always had my back and always will.
-I have a Grandmother in her 80's that comes to my house almost every day to keep Hali. She is the rock of our family and someone I admire and can only hope to be like one day when I grow up.
-I have a Father who walked into my life at my age 10 and has never left my side and I know he never will.
-I have a Mother who I looked at this morning standing in her kitchen, so sick she could hardly stand up straight, not a hair on her head, no makeup, wearing a t-shirt & sweatpants, body filled with cancer, but a heart full of complete joy & hope. And not to mention the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life.
As you can see, some of these things are true miracles, some tragedies, some I don't want to think about longer than a millisecond because I'm afraid of what the future holds, and some I can't wait for life to pass by so I can experience the future. I try to remind myself constantly that some things, ok most things, aren't made for me to understand, are out of my control, are all in God's hands. If you know me even a little bit, I'm very much a Type A personality...even been referred to as AA or AAA, ha! I want things done in a timely manner, a.k.a. immediately; I want to know about problems immediately; and I want solutions just as fast. I don't like surprises, actually I despise them. I want to know that I will have enough money in my bank account to pay all of my bills, buy groceries, maybe go on a shopping spree for Hali & I a *few* times a month. But, none of these things are guaranteed to me, nothing promised. Tomorrow isn't promised, much less the next minute we are sitting here on this earth. All of the things we have to do, all of the rushing around and errands to run, it can all stop in an instant. Life is so precious. Don't try to figure it out for yourself. Lean on the Lord and he will guide you through life, holding your hand, holding you up, when you don't think you can stand on your own 2 feet another second alone.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Who's in Control?
Since we were snowed in for much longer than what we all expected, I spent a lot of time thinking about a lot of different things. But, after so many thoughts, the only conclusion was reminding me of who was in control....and obviously God.
First, I think God sometimes does things to remind us who is in control. He can simply cover the ground with 5 1/2 inches of snow and shut our whole city down for a week. Everyone is always so busy going here, going there, paying this bill, going to this meeting, going out to dinner with this person, etc. I think a lot of times God does things to slow us down, put us back in perspective, give us a break, and to hopefully turn our focus back to him.
And if you think about it for just a split second, God is in so much control and has a perfect plan for anything and everything...creating beautiful and perfect babies; creating wonderful friendships that last no matter what and knowing you can always pick up the phone and they'll be there; being that friend back; watching one of your good friends go through the pain of her Mom dying so unexpectedly while being pregnant with her first baby; watching your Mom fight cancer (two times) and doing it with such courage and grace; watching two friends bury their newborn baby and be the two strongest people you have ever witnessed; looking at the stack of bills you have to pay and the amount in your checking account, knowing that you'll never make it, and then somehow you do; falling in love; answered and unanswered prayers.
Just remember...God always has a plan wether we realize it or not...we aren't in control of anything and nothing is coincidence...God can change anything in a blink of an eye and everything He gives and creates is simply a perfect and precious gift.
First, I think God sometimes does things to remind us who is in control. He can simply cover the ground with 5 1/2 inches of snow and shut our whole city down for a week. Everyone is always so busy going here, going there, paying this bill, going to this meeting, going out to dinner with this person, etc. I think a lot of times God does things to slow us down, put us back in perspective, give us a break, and to hopefully turn our focus back to him.
And if you think about it for just a split second, God is in so much control and has a perfect plan for anything and everything...creating beautiful and perfect babies; creating wonderful friendships that last no matter what and knowing you can always pick up the phone and they'll be there; being that friend back; watching one of your good friends go through the pain of her Mom dying so unexpectedly while being pregnant with her first baby; watching your Mom fight cancer (two times) and doing it with such courage and grace; watching two friends bury their newborn baby and be the two strongest people you have ever witnessed; looking at the stack of bills you have to pay and the amount in your checking account, knowing that you'll never make it, and then somehow you do; falling in love; answered and unanswered prayers.
Just remember...God always has a plan wether we realize it or not...we aren't in control of anything and nothing is coincidence...God can change anything in a blink of an eye and everything He gives and creates is simply a perfect and precious gift.
1/15/2011
So Mommy got me some glasses today because I get very angry when the sun hits me in the face. I really like them...they're big and round just like what Mommy wears.
1/13/2011
Every morning Hali just wants to chill and play with toys. This was Thursday morning 1/13 with Daddy since we were still snowed in :)
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
1/12/2011
So little did we know that we would literally be snowed in 3 days later and counting. Most businesses have been closed and the roads are literally covered with a sheet of ice. It's crazy! But the Pigs in a Blanket were delicious!
1/11/2011
Grammie & Hali
I love love love this picture. It shows their relationship just perfectly.
My Mom is the BEST Grandmother to Hali there could possibly be. She helped me so much when I first had Hali and I had NO clue what to do with a baby.
She keeps Hali everyday while I work. When my Mom walks into the room, Hali just lights up. She definitely knows who Grammie is.
Unfortunately, my Mom was diagnosed with bone cancer right before Christmas. We're praying and keeping the faith that God will heal her. She says she will do anything for Hali and her cousin Katie so she's definitely in for the fight. She's the strongest and most beautiful person I have ever known. She is so positive and Hali & I will be with her every step of the way. I hope your prayers will be too...
I love love love this picture. It shows their relationship just perfectly.
My Mom is the BEST Grandmother to Hali there could possibly be. She helped me so much when I first had Hali and I had NO clue what to do with a baby.
She keeps Hali everyday while I work. When my Mom walks into the room, Hali just lights up. She definitely knows who Grammie is.
Unfortunately, my Mom was diagnosed with bone cancer right before Christmas. We're praying and keeping the faith that God will heal her. She says she will do anything for Hali and her cousin Katie so she's definitely in for the fight. She's the strongest and most beautiful person I have ever known. She is so positive and Hali & I will be with her every step of the way. I hope your prayers will be too...
Project 365
Project 365 is underway...posting a picture everyday throughout the year...here we go...
New at this blogging stuff, but I'm gonna try...
So, a lot of my friends blog. I always enjoy reading them. I figured, what the heck, I'll start one too. I'm not really sure what I'm going to "blog" about, but I have a feeling that it will consist of a bunch of Hali, and maybe a little bit of the rest of my family.
First, just to let you know a little bit about us...Charlton and I got married in June 2005. We bought our first home in 2006. We have 2 dogs...Layla, an English Setter, and Huck, our dachshund. More importantly :) we had our first baby girl in July 2010, Hali Faith. She is an absolute angel and I cannot imagine life without her, which is how everyone told me it would be. I didn't believe a single one of them...until now. From the second I laid eyes on her and held her, I was hooked, and I'm pretty sure her Daddy was too. Her laugh is worth a million bucks, her eyes will stop you in your tracks, and I can already tell she's going to be so much fun. And, I'm not the only one that's hooked on her...my ENTIRE family is. It's amazing how a little baby changes things.
Charlton owns Nature's Accent, a landscaping business. And, I'm an insurance agent for Cotton States.
That's us in a nutshell...more to come later.
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